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May 23, 2019 A Snail’s Pace

Since the beginning of May, Annadelle has been in an intense day treatment therapy program at Thomas Hospital, one of only two hospitals (including Children’s) to offer such program in the state of Alabama. She goes to therapy every single day for 4 hours, although she rotates disciplines (meaning Monday, Wednesday, Friday is PT; Tuesday, Thursday is OT).

Her therapists- Lisa and Jessica- have been such a blessing to us during this time. It is so refreshing to know they have not given up on her. They take a proactive approach to her care and are doing a lot of research in to AFM.

At the beginning of the month, Annadelle was unable to use her quad muscles functionally. We could also not feel a contraction in either leg on those muscles. If you saw videos of her picking her legs up, it was the hip flexor muscles you saw working, not quads.

After working with Lisa and Jessica for almost a month daily, taking advantage of suspended treadmill exercises, the therasuit, and the therapy cage, Annadelle has shown progress. She is now able to use both of her quads functionally and we are also able to feel a contraction on both legs. This is a huge step for kiddos with AFM, as many may use the muscle functionally but be too weak to feel a contraction.

With that being said, Annadelle’s legs are still extremely weak. Her core muscles have improved and she is now able to sit herself up from a supine position. This means we are now able to put her in her room or in the floor for longer periods of time because if she falls over she can push herself back up. She still does not use her left arm for much weight bearing, but Chris and I are going to start constraint therapy at home for about an hour a day to see if that helps her left arm. Constraint therapy is where you block off one limb in order to help the other improve, essentially forcing the weaker limb to work harder. Because her right arm is much stronger, she often opts for the easiest way to do something and just lets her left arm dangle even though she is able to use it.

Her therapists have been working to strengthen Annadelle enough that she can crawl, which is a big milestone for her. Although she isn’t able to bear much weight on lefty yet, she still tries to crawl periodically. While I was cooking dinner the other night, I had put her in her room to play with her Barbie house. A few minutes later, I hear, “Help! Help!” I ran through to her room to find her with her legs crossed under her, face down. She had been trying to crawl closer to the Barbie house. She was laughing and said, “Well, I tried!!!” I wish I could express how proud I was of her for trying something so simple. I never imagined I would take crawling for granted when she was 6 years old, but when she gets to that point I can promise you I will never again take it for granted.

Annadelle after church on May 19th. She is sporting her new purple wheelchair from NuMotion. It is much lighter than her old wheelchair and she is able to push herself around fairly well.

This past Tuesday, I had a meeting with the school after I had requested a special education referral for an IEP. I don’t want to post too much about it because the situation is still ongoing, but I will say the meeting was not as bad as I expected it to be.

I ended up hiring a Special Education Advocate to help me through the process and I’m so glad I did. Our advocate, Deborah Jordan, has been a blessing in that she has helped us to navigate the crazy road of IEP. She attended the referral meeting with me via telephone and jumped in when she felt it was needed. She also helped to explain all the terminology after the meeting and what to expect moving forward.

If you are in a similar situation with IEP, I would highly recommend hiring an advocate.

Annadelle’s referral was accepted, so she is now going through several evaluations. Her speech, vision, and hearing screenings were done yesterday. I won’t know what the results of those are until our next IEP meeting where we will discuss eligibility.

Annadelle has also been visiting a chiropractor that came highly recommended to us. Above are some scans that were completed at the clinic because we had concerns Annadelle’s left leg was now shorter than her right. The left leg is the weaker leg and it is not unusual for kids with AFM to have limb length deficiencies after onset. We also spoke to an orthopedist about this and he suggested we have xrays completed to determine if there was actually a length difference or if her pelvis was twisted.

Thankfully, the problem is not a leg length deficiency- it is the position of her pelvis. Her left pelvis is rotated posteriorly and her right pelvis is rotated anteriorly. To combat this, we have been doing stretches with her and also taking her to see Dr. Alicia and Dr. Sharkey, the chiropractors, who seem to have taken a keen interest in her case. They believe that once her pelvis is properly aligned and her left side of her core has strengthened a bit, it will be much easier for her to walk. Right now we have 52 visits lined up and are going about 3 times a week on top of therapy.

We were also blessed recently with an order for a KAFO (knee ankle foot orthotic) for her left leg and an AFO (ankle foot orthotic) for her right leg. I took her to see Chad (the orthotist) last week so he could cast her legs for molds. He will make the orthotics at his office and call me when they are ready.

I am so stinkin’ excited for her to get her KAFO because I think it will definitely help to practice walking and help her strengthen her core muscles. I have basically been stalking pages of my friends whose kids have or had KAFOs and noticed almost all of them saw drastic improvements in core strength. The hope is that when she is standing with the KAFO locking her leg and providing her more stability underneath, she can focus a little more on the core to strengthen it.

We will see.

As usual, thank you for keeping up with my updates. I know they are few and far between now and there is a lot of information I didn’t include in order to keep the post relatively short, so if you have questions please feel free to ask.

Please continue to pray for our warrior princess, as we are moving at a snail’s pace with recovery. We are still believing and praying for complete restoration of her body.

May 14, 2019

I know, I know. It’s been a HOT minute since I updated. But listen, I’ll be very frank about this- I haven’t been in a good place.

Once we came home and began to adjust to life as we now know it, I lost myself. I guess you could call it depression, but it felt like so much more than that. Being lost. Hopelessness. Neglect. Immense sadness.

Imagine writing in a notebook or a journal. Think about your day and write it as it was. “I went to work, then I came home and made dinner.” The next 52 sentences are written to chronicle what happened in your day. The next line becomes just that- only a line. It doesn’t stay straight, but it strays from where it should be and before you know it your pen is all over the paper, a tornado of ink flooding what was once a well thought out description of what you did that day. Now you can’t read what you wrote. All you see is black.

That’s what my life has felt like since October 1, 2018. A swirl of black blurring the images of what life should have been.

Through a lot of prayer, I’ve managed to bring myself out of that hole, at least for the most part. There are still days where I struggle to maintain a smile or be joyful. I think that is to be expected.

Since my last post, there hasn’t been much that has happened. We are just continuing to live our lives and work on Annadelle’s therapy.

This past week we started an intense day treatment program at Thomas Hospital where Annadelle has been attending PT and OT three days a week, but now it is every single day from 8am-12pm. If I’m honest, it’s kicking my ass. I thought initially it was because I am not used to getting up so early, but I now think I can attribute most of my general feeling of being tired to a low carb induction which I began May 8th. This is known as the “low carb flu” that sometimes results as your body excretes excess sugars in order to use fat for energy rather than carbs. Since I’m almost through the first week, I’m know that sluggish feeling will go away soon.

Chris also bought me a car. It’s a Jeep Wrangler and I absolutely love it. However, as our luck would have it, the engine went out on it the day after we bought it. And of course we bought it from an individual so we thought we were screwed, but alas God stepped in and made it right. The guy who sold us the car ended up sending us money to fix the engine, so we weren’t out anything. Chris ordered an engine and has been putting it in for the past week and a half by himself. He used to work as a jet mechanic so he has a basic knowledge of engines and whatnot. Praise God for that, as the labor costs would have been twice the amount we paid for the engine.

Easter was hard for me. I have always enjoyed Annadelle running to grab Easter eggs with her cousin, but she wasn’t able to do that this year. We decided to take her to the beach and put her on a sled we have and pull her around to find the eggs on the beach. We invited a few friends to come but they all declined so our Easter was rather lackluster. It just made me realize how much she isn’t able to participate in now which made me feel so much worse.

That feeling has improved slightly since Annadelle was able to get her new, lightweight wheelchair. She moves herself around a lot more now, especially around the house. It obviously doesn’t help at the beach or at a playground, but we are steadily praying that we need some major improvements with therapy.

As of the end of last week, Annadelle “walked” on a treadmill at therapy. She was in a harness with virtually no weight being placed on her lower extremities, but she was moving her legs in a walking motion without the help of anyone. I posted a video of this on my personal Facebook page that I hope to upload to YouTube soon for our readers to see. I’ll update when I get all the videos uploaded. Her therapist, Lisa, and myself were completely shocked. She had never gotten on the treadmill and moved her legs as she did. It was the first day in a long time that I felt a true sense of hope that she will one day walk again.

With that being said, Chris and I decided against putting her through a nerve transfer surgery. The short reason is because we just didn’t feel comfortable about it. If we change our minds, we’ll call Dr. Moore’s office to see if we can reschedule, as her surgery was scheduled for May 22. When I told Dr. Moore’s office we wanted to cancel, they didn’t ask why. A simple, “Ok, thanks,” and the conversation was over. It made me feel like my kid was just a number and they would move on to the next without hesitation.

I’m sure there’s a lot more to update about since I’ve been MIA from the blog for so long, but I’m exhausted and ready for a good night’s sleep. I just wanted to hop on with a quick update and a thank you to those who check on us periodically. The days and weeks following trauma are hard, but the months after are much harder. Reality sets in and you are often forgotten, so I just want to say a special thank you to those who have continued to keep our baby girl in your prayers. Our journey is far from over.

March 13, 2019 Birthday Eve

Tomorrow is Annadelle’s 6th birthday.

She is so excited about her birthday and her party that I have scheduled for the 23rd. We decided to do an indoor pool party for her so that she will hopefully be able to interact more easily with other kids. She moves more freely in the water and I’m excited to get a bit more therapy in while she’s having fun.

My mother-in-law is coming in to town tomorrow for Annadelle’s birthday. Right now our plan is just to bake cupcakes sometime during the day and possibly go out to eat as a family at night. When given the opportunity to choose any restaurant, Annadelle said she wanted to go to Chick-fil-A.

As far as therapy, we have been continuing going to Fairhope each day. Her therapists have told us (basically) that we need to focus more on her core strength than we do her legs, because if she does not have enough core strength to support herself, she can’t walk.

Our goal is to continue putting her in the stander and using the knee immobilizers. We are now going to incorporate a lot of time on the floor to practice rolling and balancing. Exercises like partial sit-ups and reaching is going to help increase the strength in her core, and hopefully she can walk soon after that happens.

I am not overly impressed with the facility, but there is nowhere else closer to us that will accept her as a patient. Thomas rehab is not set up for kids with severe spinal injuries. We have decided to drop her rehab from 5 days a week to 3, possibly 2. We are going to replace those missing days with swimming at the community center. It will be a lot of work on us, but traveling to Fairhope each morning takes the majority of our day so we aren’t able to get as much in at home as we would like. Right now time is precious to us. I’m praying we are making the right decisions to ensure she is able to have as much recovery as possible.

I received a call today from one of the neurologists at Children’s of Alabama who is requesting that we come back to Birmingham so that the neuro team can see her in clinic. They also want to do another MRI and place her under anesthesia. I asked what their reason for a repeat MRI would be and was told it will help them to determine what kind of recovery she will have.

For some reason this phone call infuriated me. Almost every single doctor we have spoken to, with the exception of Dr. Pardo at John’s Hopkins Hospital, gave us conflicting information about AFM and recovery rates. Many doctors simply don’t know outcomes because there is not enough information to provide accurate statistics. Many, many, MANY of the doctors we have spoken with base predicted outcomes on outcomes from patients with different diseases, not AFM.

The truth is this neurologist that contacted me today wants us to have an MRI because Annadelle’s diagnosis is so rare that a repeat MRI offers a valuable learning experience to the team. I am simply not willing to put her through yet another MRI, needles, or any additional time in the hospital that isn’t absolutely necessary for her recovery.

Besides, Dr. Pardo already told us he believed she would make a full recovery, so what would happen if these less experienced doctors told me something different? I’d be an absolute wreck, that’s what would happen. I’d much rather continue to put my trust in God that she will walk again. Chris agreed.

Prior to therapy today, I met with Jeremy, a rep from NuMotion, and Patty, an employee of Children’s Rehabilitation Services in Mobile. We had the meeting in order for them to measure her for a wheelchair and to complete a quick exam to see what she could do and what she couldn’t.

We decided to order her a Ti Lite Twist manual wheelchair. The chair is the exact same one she used at KKI and is light enough that she can easily move around in it. When compared to the other chairs, this was will allow her to grow width-wise and length-wise over the next three years which is the amount of time the wheelchair will need to last (at a minimum) before our insurance will pay for a replacement (unless there is a problem with the chair, in which case it is under a warranty).

She will also be getting the SmartDrive power assist option that will allow her to go long distances. She can push her wheelchair a bit, but she tires out very easily. The SmartDrive will make it easier for her to get around school when she goes back or even help on a simple trip to the store. Check out this link for more info about the SmartDrive. There are also videos at that link to show how it works.

Shelves in her room feature artwork that she created at KKI.

In preparation for my MIL arriving tomorrow, my mom helped me to get Annadelle’s room cleaned out and organized. She had received so many toys and gifts in the hospital that we literally did not have enough room for everything. We have been going through stuff to donate (from our entire house, not just her room) and ended up with two large carloads that my mom and I took to her church’s manna house today to be distributed to locals who are in need of those items.

We will continue working to gather her needed therapy items so that her room can be converted into a small gym. Many of our friends have purchased several items from our Amazon Wish List to help us with these items, and for that we are forever grateful! We are still looking for several items from our list. I have been scouring Marketplace and Craigslist to see if I can find any equipment used, but so far I haven’t had any luck.

I can’t thank our friends and family (and even strangers!) enough for all of the support you have offered over the last several months. Please continue to pray fervently for our sweet girl that she will walk again. I would give anything to see it happen.

March 10, 2019

Life isn’t fair.

I’ve heard that too many times to count. I know that, indeed, life is not fair. I will never understand why some people face more struggles than others, but it doesn’t mean I can’t be angry about it.

To be blunt, I’m at the point in my stages of grief that I’m angry about what has happened to my family.

A few days ago, we went to the Orange Beach Arts Festival at the Coastal Art Center that sits right on the bay. There were many vendors, craft stations, and performances to enjoy, but I didn’t enjoy a second of it. Instead, I thought about this beach. Before AFM, Annadelle would have begged to take her shoes off and wade in this water. The sad thing is that I probably wouldn’t have let her.

But now? I wouldn’t hesitate to say yes if she could walk. I would give anything- literally anything- for her to be able to walk and enjoy life as she once did.

As we walked to the end of the pier, I was overwhelmed with sadness. It was a beautiful day with gorgeous weather, but all I could think about was that beach and how much I wished she could walk along and play in it.

It breaks my heart to know that the only way she can truly experience so many things is for one of us to hold her or carry her to it. She no longer has independence. She can’t brush her teeth by herself or brush her hair. She can’t get herself dressed or use the restroom on her own. Getting her dressed or giving a bath is a huge effort in itself. I try to focus on the things she can do, but it is quickly overshadowed.

We are exhausted. Mentally and physically, Chris and I both are worn down. We have spent so much time living in hospitals that it’s almost like we don’t know how to function outside of one anymore. Living our lives is now more a chore than a joy. We have lost ourselves. We don’t have many friends here and are both very lonely.

Of course I recognize this. I know there is a problem, but it does not feel like there is a solution. The solution would be for Annadelle to walk again, and I feel like we have been trying everything we know to get her to walk again, but God has not answered that prayer.

Every. Single. Night. I beg Him for her to walk. I don’t feel like he hears me. I see so many stories on the parent group from parents whose kids were affected like Annadelle was. Many of these kids are walking, playing, enjoying their daily lives. While I am truly overjoyed for them, a big part of me is so jealous. Why isn’t Annadelle able to do those things? Why doesn’t God fix it? Does he see all of these tears and hear these cries for help, for healing? It doesn’t feel like it.

I am so worried this is all of the recovery that she will get. I can’t help but battle this feeling that I have failed her already. I am not strong enough, mentally and physically, to do this for the rest of her life. I know that there are kids who recover with time, but I don’t feel like I am strong enough to do this for another year, two years, three years or more. Surely God knows this.

I am truly carrying more than I can handle.

Even still, we are continuing to try to get in enough therapy at home every day, praying that this therapy helps to strengthen her arms and legs. She is not tolerating the stander for very long at all and cries after about 30-45 minutes. We try to keep her motivated or distracted, but it isn’t working well.

We were finally able to order her SPIO vest, but I have no idea when it will be in. Hopefully we will get it soon because her posture is struggling and she has already developed scoliosis. The rep from NuMotion is meeting us tomorrow to measure her for her new wheelchair. I am praying that it comes in quickly and that insurance approves it.

Most of all I am praying for healing for Annadelle. I know that God has worked miracles in our lives while we were in the hospital. I saw it with my own eyes on several occasions. I am praying for another miracle, and that is for Annadelle to walk again.

Please pray for us. We need it.

March 3, 2019 BEMER Technology

I was productive today, a welcomed change from my recent habits. I didn’t spend the entire day in my pajamas sitting in the recliner drinking hot tea, but instead spent most of the day unpacking.

Of course this unpacking involves a lot of moving boxes from the “unpack” pile to the “donate” pile. I have a carload of stuff ready to go to the thrift store already and at least 8 large boxes still waiting to be unpacked. Our new home is much smaller than our old so we are slowly adjusting. In the meantime, my house looks like a disaster.

However, that didn’t keep me from agreeing to allow a rep from Hill-Rom to come and show us how to use the airway clearance vest Dr. Lovlie had ordered for us. I simply followed our introduction with, “Don’t mind our home. We live here!”

The rep showed us the vent system and provided Annadelle with a vest large enough to fit her. Dr. Lovlie had ordered the wrap, but the rep said the vests work much better so she brought both. It’s a child medium so she still has another inch to grow before she needs a vest the next size up. The rep said she would go ahead and order the next size and have it sent to us and to call her if we had any questions.

We are to use the vest twice a day for at least 20 minutes a session, even if Annadelle is not sick. The vest vibrates rapidly and allows the secretions in her lungs to be knocked loose and thinned out, hopefully preventing her from another bout with pneumonia and keeping her out of the hospital. I didn’t realize she would have to use it twice a day, but we will just have to add that in with our new schedule.

Our new schedule includes a lot of supplements, a few hours of therapy, and now the vest. We try to make the activities fun for her but she is growing bored with some of the activities we do. We tried to switch it up last night and have “movie night” which is something she loved while we were in Baltimore. She said, “Mommy, can we have movie night with popcorn?” We put her in her new recliner we got her from Wayfair before we went to Baltimore and covered her legs with a blanket. I wish I would have gotten a photo of her laid back in that recliner snacking loudly on popcorn. She was in heaven.

After the rep from Hill-Rom left, we headed back to A Better Way in Foley to get on the BEMER mat. We had been doing some research into the BEMER since we talked to Dr. Kelley the last time we went to A Better Way and found a plethora of positive information on improved circulation and general bloodflow.

Chris laid on the mat first for a total of 16 minutes, which is actually two sessions. You simply lay on the mat until the timer goes off. You don’t feel anything, but I did notice I felt warm after my session. Annadelle was excited to be on it at first but quickly became bored when she realized she would just be laying on a bed. She started to move around a lot so we had to keep telling her to try to be still, something easier said than done for a 5 year old.

Annadelle will be getting on the BEMER mat each day as long as Dr. Kelley permits. She is interested to see what kind of improvements in mobility Annadelle makes. The idea is that the mat will help to increase bloodflow, improve oxygenation of her blood and allow the body to heal itself at a much more rapid pace than it would without the BEMER.

Dr. Kelley wants me to make sure and keep up with what she can and can’t do right now, then what she can and can’t do after using the BEMER. Today (before BEMER) we noticed Annadelle can easily lift her left arm up over her head while she is in the tub. This is a drastic improvement from a few weeks ago when she was only able to use her bicep. Now she is actually pushing up in the water (but unable to in full gravity). She isn’t able to push her left leg down but she can lift it up very well.

She still has no movement in her left foot besides the two toes that we already know she can use. She can’t lift her foot up or “gas pedal” down. She can push down on her right leg very well but can’t lift it up well at all. If she could push down on her left leg, I think she could “walk” much easier so I have been praying for that OR for her right quad to “wake up”. One or the other would make the walking much better.

Her core seems to be getting stronger. She is still not able to sit up on her own from a flat position and she isn’t strong enough to transfer herself, but we are hoping for continued improvement.

Today we ordered the Healer Tech FlexrGo!, a wearable EMG device that was recommended in the AFM parent group. According to Healer Tech’s website, the FlexrGo! is “a wearable, surface EMG which provides clinical grade movement readings for biofeedback, neuromuscular re-education, and power-strength output.” What this means is that we should be able to place a “sticky” on one of Annadelle’s muscles and the device would show us a reading of how much she is using that muscle on a compatible device, like an iPad.

We wanted to go ahead and order the FlexrGo! so that when it comes time to speak with Dr. Moore about a nerve transfer again, we can have a better idea of what muscles are making improvements and which muscles may need a bit of help from a nerve transfer. I am very excited to be able to see what this device can do for us.

I also got a call from Kim at NuMotion about Annadelle’s wheelchair. We are trying to get her a lightweight titanium wheelchair with Power Assist, a device that connects to the back of her wheelchair and helps her to go long distances without wearing out her arms. The Power Assist works by giving the chair a “boost” and the Power Assist then turns on and propels the chair for her. It will be vital for her to have this device when she returns to school. We will have to meet for a “seating clinic” when we go to Thomas Hospital Rehab on Wednesday along with her new therapist. We were told that once insurance approves the chair (IF they do) then we should expect the chair in about 2 weeks, a much shorter time frame than what I anticipated. She really needs her new chair in order to give her some more independence around the house and out in public. I also need to order her some wheelchair gloves.

I forgot to post that Chris and I decided to obtain the services of a special education advocate. The advocate works with us to make sure Annadelle is accommodated for at the school. They work with us and the school to ensure a smooth transition and to make sure Annadelle is awarded what she is entitled to by law, such as a desk to fit her, a transportation vehicle for school events, etc. It is a bit costly, but well worth the investment to us considering this is our “new norm” and we want to make sure Annadelle receives what she deserves as far as school goes.

Again, I am asking what I have now dubbed Annadelle’s Army to continue to pray fervently that she be able to walk. I’d like to grow her army by using social media hashtags to include #annadelleyeah (her hashtag created by our friends Matt and Nicole) and also #annadellesarmy. If you don’t mind, could you share our posts to help build her army? The more people that see our posts, the more people that can be praying for our sweet girl. If there’s anything we know for sure it’s that prayer works.

Thank you for your continued support. We are mighty blessed.


If you would like to help with Annadelle’s rising medical equipment costs, please consider donating to our GoFundMe account.