Monthly Archives: May 2019

May 23, 2019 A Snail’s Pace

Since the beginning of May, Annadelle has been in an intense day treatment therapy program at Thomas Hospital, one of only two hospitals (including Children’s) to offer such program in the state of Alabama. She goes to therapy every single day for 4 hours, although she rotates disciplines (meaning Monday, Wednesday, Friday is PT; Tuesday, Thursday is OT).

Her therapists- Lisa and Jessica- have been such a blessing to us during this time. It is so refreshing to know they have not given up on her. They take a proactive approach to her care and are doing a lot of research in to AFM.

At the beginning of the month, Annadelle was unable to use her quad muscles functionally. We could also not feel a contraction in either leg on those muscles. If you saw videos of her picking her legs up, it was the hip flexor muscles you saw working, not quads.

After working with Lisa and Jessica for almost a month daily, taking advantage of suspended treadmill exercises, the therasuit, and the therapy cage, Annadelle has shown progress. She is now able to use both of her quads functionally and we are also able to feel a contraction on both legs. This is a huge step for kiddos with AFM, as many may use the muscle functionally but be too weak to feel a contraction.

With that being said, Annadelle’s legs are still extremely weak. Her core muscles have improved and she is now able to sit herself up from a supine position. This means we are now able to put her in her room or in the floor for longer periods of time because if she falls over she can push herself back up. She still does not use her left arm for much weight bearing, but Chris and I are going to start constraint therapy at home for about an hour a day to see if that helps her left arm. Constraint therapy is where you block off one limb in order to help the other improve, essentially forcing the weaker limb to work harder. Because her right arm is much stronger, she often opts for the easiest way to do something and just lets her left arm dangle even though she is able to use it.

Her therapists have been working to strengthen Annadelle enough that she can crawl, which is a big milestone for her. Although she isn’t able to bear much weight on lefty yet, she still tries to crawl periodically. While I was cooking dinner the other night, I had put her in her room to play with her Barbie house. A few minutes later, I hear, “Help! Help!” I ran through to her room to find her with her legs crossed under her, face down. She had been trying to crawl closer to the Barbie house. She was laughing and said, “Well, I tried!!!” I wish I could express how proud I was of her for trying something so simple. I never imagined I would take crawling for granted when she was 6 years old, but when she gets to that point I can promise you I will never again take it for granted.

Annadelle after church on May 19th. She is sporting her new purple wheelchair from NuMotion. It is much lighter than her old wheelchair and she is able to push herself around fairly well.

This past Tuesday, I had a meeting with the school after I had requested a special education referral for an IEP. I don’t want to post too much about it because the situation is still ongoing, but I will say the meeting was not as bad as I expected it to be.

I ended up hiring a Special Education Advocate to help me through the process and I’m so glad I did. Our advocate, Deborah Jordan, has been a blessing in that she has helped us to navigate the crazy road of IEP. She attended the referral meeting with me via telephone and jumped in when she felt it was needed. She also helped to explain all the terminology after the meeting and what to expect moving forward.

If you are in a similar situation with IEP, I would highly recommend hiring an advocate.

Annadelle’s referral was accepted, so she is now going through several evaluations. Her speech, vision, and hearing screenings were done yesterday. I won’t know what the results of those are until our next IEP meeting where we will discuss eligibility.

Annadelle has also been visiting a chiropractor that came highly recommended to us. Above are some scans that were completed at the clinic because we had concerns Annadelle’s left leg was now shorter than her right. The left leg is the weaker leg and it is not unusual for kids with AFM to have limb length deficiencies after onset. We also spoke to an orthopedist about this and he suggested we have xrays completed to determine if there was actually a length difference or if her pelvis was twisted.

Thankfully, the problem is not a leg length deficiency- it is the position of her pelvis. Her left pelvis is rotated posteriorly and her right pelvis is rotated anteriorly. To combat this, we have been doing stretches with her and also taking her to see Dr. Alicia and Dr. Sharkey, the chiropractors, who seem to have taken a keen interest in her case. They believe that once her pelvis is properly aligned and her left side of her core has strengthened a bit, it will be much easier for her to walk. Right now we have 52 visits lined up and are going about 3 times a week on top of therapy.

We were also blessed recently with an order for a KAFO (knee ankle foot orthotic) for her left leg and an AFO (ankle foot orthotic) for her right leg. I took her to see Chad (the orthotist) last week so he could cast her legs for molds. He will make the orthotics at his office and call me when they are ready.

I am so stinkin’ excited for her to get her KAFO because I think it will definitely help to practice walking and help her strengthen her core muscles. I have basically been stalking pages of my friends whose kids have or had KAFOs and noticed almost all of them saw drastic improvements in core strength. The hope is that when she is standing with the KAFO locking her leg and providing her more stability underneath, she can focus a little more on the core to strengthen it.

We will see.

As usual, thank you for keeping up with my updates. I know they are few and far between now and there is a lot of information I didn’t include in order to keep the post relatively short, so if you have questions please feel free to ask.

Please continue to pray for our warrior princess, as we are moving at a snail’s pace with recovery. We are still believing and praying for complete restoration of her body.

May 14, 2019

I know, I know. It’s been a HOT minute since I updated. But listen, I’ll be very frank about this- I haven’t been in a good place.

Once we came home and began to adjust to life as we now know it, I lost myself. I guess you could call it depression, but it felt like so much more than that. Being lost. Hopelessness. Neglect. Immense sadness.

Imagine writing in a notebook or a journal. Think about your day and write it as it was. “I went to work, then I came home and made dinner.” The next 52 sentences are written to chronicle what happened in your day. The next line becomes just that- only a line. It doesn’t stay straight, but it strays from where it should be and before you know it your pen is all over the paper, a tornado of ink flooding what was once a well thought out description of what you did that day. Now you can’t read what you wrote. All you see is black.

That’s what my life has felt like since October 1, 2018. A swirl of black blurring the images of what life should have been.

Through a lot of prayer, I’ve managed to bring myself out of that hole, at least for the most part. There are still days where I struggle to maintain a smile or be joyful. I think that is to be expected.

Since my last post, there hasn’t been much that has happened. We are just continuing to live our lives and work on Annadelle’s therapy.

This past week we started an intense day treatment program at Thomas Hospital where Annadelle has been attending PT and OT three days a week, but now it is every single day from 8am-12pm. If I’m honest, it’s kicking my ass. I thought initially it was because I am not used to getting up so early, but I now think I can attribute most of my general feeling of being tired to a low carb induction which I began May 8th. This is known as the “low carb flu” that sometimes results as your body excretes excess sugars in order to use fat for energy rather than carbs. Since I’m almost through the first week, I’m know that sluggish feeling will go away soon.

Chris also bought me a car. It’s a Jeep Wrangler and I absolutely love it. However, as our luck would have it, the engine went out on it the day after we bought it. And of course we bought it from an individual so we thought we were screwed, but alas God stepped in and made it right. The guy who sold us the car ended up sending us money to fix the engine, so we weren’t out anything. Chris ordered an engine and has been putting it in for the past week and a half by himself. He used to work as a jet mechanic so he has a basic knowledge of engines and whatnot. Praise God for that, as the labor costs would have been twice the amount we paid for the engine.

Easter was hard for me. I have always enjoyed Annadelle running to grab Easter eggs with her cousin, but she wasn’t able to do that this year. We decided to take her to the beach and put her on a sled we have and pull her around to find the eggs on the beach. We invited a few friends to come but they all declined so our Easter was rather lackluster. It just made me realize how much she isn’t able to participate in now which made me feel so much worse.

That feeling has improved slightly since Annadelle was able to get her new, lightweight wheelchair. She moves herself around a lot more now, especially around the house. It obviously doesn’t help at the beach or at a playground, but we are steadily praying that we need some major improvements with therapy.

As of the end of last week, Annadelle “walked” on a treadmill at therapy. She was in a harness with virtually no weight being placed on her lower extremities, but she was moving her legs in a walking motion without the help of anyone. I posted a video of this on my personal Facebook page that I hope to upload to YouTube soon for our readers to see. I’ll update when I get all the videos uploaded. Her therapist, Lisa, and myself were completely shocked. She had never gotten on the treadmill and moved her legs as she did. It was the first day in a long time that I felt a true sense of hope that she will one day walk again.

With that being said, Chris and I decided against putting her through a nerve transfer surgery. The short reason is because we just didn’t feel comfortable about it. If we change our minds, we’ll call Dr. Moore’s office to see if we can reschedule, as her surgery was scheduled for May 22. When I told Dr. Moore’s office we wanted to cancel, they didn’t ask why. A simple, “Ok, thanks,” and the conversation was over. It made me feel like my kid was just a number and they would move on to the next without hesitation.

I’m sure there’s a lot more to update about since I’ve been MIA from the blog for so long, but I’m exhausted and ready for a good night’s sleep. I just wanted to hop on with a quick update and a thank you to those who check on us periodically. The days and weeks following trauma are hard, but the months after are much harder. Reality sets in and you are often forgotten, so I just want to say a special thank you to those who have continued to keep our baby girl in your prayers. Our journey is far from over.